Everything’s gonna be alright

“Everything’s gonna be alright
Everything’s gonna be okay
(No doubt)
Everything’s gonna be alright.”
Sweetbox- Everything’s gonna be alright

Within the spring I had a feeling that I need a small change in my life. Distance to Jyväskylä and the people in there. Because I had no other plans for summer than online summercourses, I decided to move to Helsinki for summer. I’ve lived previously in Helsinki and thought that it would be nice to spend a summer in there. Meet old friends, enjoy of Helsinki and work on my own projects.

Deciding was easy because the solution felt right. However making it true in practice was a bit more challenging. Soon I noticed that I was in a situation where I was leaving my apartment in Jyväskylä empty for the summer and pay full rent for it, renting another apartment from Helsinki, wondering how I’ll get myself and my cats to Helsinki, worrying about electricity contract and other everyday matters.

When I told about the situation to my family members, friends and acquaintances I had to say quite often that “I don’t know.” I don’t know what I will do to my apartment in Jyväskylä, I don’t know when I’ll leave to Helsinki, I don’t know how I’ll get my stuff and myself to there, I don’t know how things will sort out.

This uncertainty seemed so stressed others more than me. Though I was myself anxious and stressed ultimatelly I believed that everything’s gonna be alright. I believed that somehow things will work out though I didn’t know how, where and when it will happen. And so it did, everything worked out in the end.

I always wonder how things can change in a moment. How in one day life may get a totally new direction. How things may work out in the last moment. How things will work out if we just have a faith in it and don’t give up but rather do what we can do.

We would like to control our lives, decide how and when things will work out. The most hardest part is to let go of the control and just go with the flow. However usually when we let go of control and let go of things then the miracles will happen. On ways we didn’t know to expect.

With love, Anu-Maarit